“Another retrograde is coming.”

When does it stop? It’s been close to 7 months since I have been thrown into the deep end of all of this and I need a vacation from everything. I feel like I have enrolled into ascension university and the first semester just kicked my ass. I barely passed any of my classes and I’m looking forward to summer break. But in this situation there is no summer break.

Up next, is the Neptune retrograde, where the illusions in our lives are slowly being pulled away so we are faced with our realities. Neptune also represents spirituality. So in addition, we will be forced to go inwards, inside ourselves to reevaluate everything. (Story of my life life lately!)

For me, this whole journey so far has been about personal development. Jail breaking out of the programming and getting

“tuned in, tapped in, turned on…” – Abraham Hicks

so to speak. First learning ‘what is it that I really want from life?’, then adjusting my frequency accordingly. It’s almost a practice or discipline of sorts.

But in all seriousness…

I’m working through a lot of loose ends. My vibe is off. I’m attracting the wrong things, or maybe the right things for the time to learn the lessons I need to — but I would rather not.

I have to remember that this is not about my fairy godmother giving me presents. It’s about the ascension at the end of the day.

Ah time to let go of that materialistic ideology.

Regardless of ascension or just pure selfishness architecting your life is hard. (Remember my purpose here on life is to ‘be’… and right now I’m having a tough time just ‘being’.) When you get real freedom in life, figuring out what you really want becomes a little less straight forward. And if you aren’t careful about your vibes you just attract more of the same, or even worst.

Frequency is everything.

It’s time to clean up my vibration and focus upon the thoughts that feel good. Period.

Well — Neptune is in retrograde so I will have plenty of time to figure this out.