When does it stop? It’s been close to 7 months since I have been thrown into the deep end of all of this and I need a vacation from everything. I feel like I have enrolled into ascension university and the first semester just kicked my ass. I barely passed any of my classes and I’m looking forward to summer break. But in this situation there is no summer break.
Up next, is the Neptune retrograde, where the illusions in our lives are slowly being pulled away so we are faced with our realities. Neptune also represents spirituality. So in addition, we will be forced to go inwards, inside ourselves to reevaluate everything. (Story of my life life lately!)
For me, this whole journey so far has been about personal development. Jail breaking out of the programming and getting
“tuned in, tapped in, turned on…” – Abraham Hicks
so to speak. First learning ‘what is it that I really want from life?’, then adjusting my frequency accordingly. It’s almost a practice or discipline of sorts.
But in all seriousness…
I’m working through a lot of loose ends. My vibe is off. I’m attracting the wrong things, or maybe the right things for the time to learn the lessons I need to — but I would rather not.
I have to remember that this is not about my fairy godmother giving me presents. It’s about the ascension at the end of the day.
Ah time to let go of that materialistic ideology.
Regardless of ascension or just pure selfishness architecting your life is hard. (Remember my purpose here on life is to ‘be’… and right now I’m having a tough time just ‘being’.) When you get real freedom in life, figuring out what you really want becomes a little less straight forward. And if you aren’t careful about your vibes you just attract more of the same, or even worst.
I bet some of you don’t even know what this is. Let me present to you the radio. This thing can receive radio waves in which turns into music! This — was the OG to Spotify.
“Radio waves are a type of electromagnetic radiation with wavelengths in the electromagnetic spectrum longer than infrared light. Radio waves have frequencies as high as 300 gigahertz to as low as 30 hertz.” – Wikipedia
Back in the day, you had to tune into the right frequency to connect to your favorite radio station to which would play your favorite music. (It wasn’t always on demand music).
So just like with the radio, in your life you have to adjust frequencies to get what you want. As per the laws of the attraction you have to match the frequency of what you want — because everything vibrates a frequency.
Just take a moment to watch or listen this video below. It explains EVERYTHING.
Isn’t Abraham Hicks amazing?
And with this collective awakening, it’s important to master the science of a tuning your frequency as we are all slowly raising the collective vibration so we can ascend to 5d!
Is this starting to make a little more sense now?
But forewarning — adjusting your frequency is a life long learning journey. If it was easy everyone would be doing it.
As if sh*t was not getting weird enough. There was a moment where I got the urge to go buy tarot cards. To be clear I bought one tarot deck and 2 oracle sets on Amazon. (Thank you for making shopping too easy Amazon.)
Truthfully, I got inspired off of Pinterest. I came across a pins about spreads and decided ‘what the hell’!
Once they came I found myself mesmerized by the art. (Ever happen to you?).
Not really buying into the fortune by paper — I decided to use the cards as of more of an introspective look into my soul. (As if I wasn’t getting enough of that.) I would pull cards, read the meaning and see how it resonated with me. Then journal that feeling. (Hoping the countless of hours of introspection would give me more direction.)
Okay brace yourselves — I got fancy. One night I even got inspired to create my own spreads on Canva. Drum roll…
(Don’t judge me)
Yep. That last one though — sorry dating has been non existent and I’m searching for better options then Bumble or Tinder.
Feel free to use them. Hope it helps. Yeah – so that’s that story for ya.
So tonight we’re gonna party like it’s 1999! – Prince
Apparently, when we arrive is irrelevant as timing is always divine. (There is no such thing as fashionably late here.)
And you can check your duality at the door — thanks.
Yep – I just threw Britney in there. Because this song is how I feel. Woah oh oh oh oh oh oh…
Because we are ascending to the 5d.
So what’s the 5d?! Yeah… umm… another dimension.
I’ll give you a moment to process that. I’ll check back in a few minutes. Go ahead and Google if you need to. Watch a few Youtube videos. It’s okay, I was the same exact way. Doesn’t this sh*t just keep getting weirder ( and when does it stop)?
Okay — you good? I know, it sounds a bit — crazy. But you have to admit, things are shifting around us. People are waking up. People aren’t playing into the status quo anymore.
Just pay attention to the news. People are ousting the bad guys, people are openly discussing their spirituality, manifestation, laws of attraction and everything in between. I mean UFOs are becoming a common place conversation now. And most importantly, there is a whole movement of people breaking away from corporate slavery. (Ahh freedom of the mind.) People are going back to buying directly from each other various of services and products. (And enter stage left crypto…) I can go on and on…
So let’s get back to this 5D stuff. I have been researching but can’t find the OG behind this stuff so I’m going to have to give you the run down from how I understand it. Don’t hold me to a candle. Okay?
So 3d is where “most” of us have come from or are still in. In this dimension we have all the bad stuff, fear, duality, materialism, greed, jealously, etc (think 7 deadly sins).
Then we move into the 4d. This is considered the “dream world.” Where things are more fluid but duality still exists. Some say that some of us are already here.
And lastly, (but not really because in theory there are 13 of these dimensions) there is 5d — the dimension of light. Here no duality and none of the bad stuff exists. Pure light and unconditional light only exists here. (Sounds dreamy right?)
This is where we are all heading to. But before you are given access to VIP (5d) you got to burn off all the bad stuff. Yes, the universe might continue to hit you with a bat until you bend to it’s will. Trust me when I say this, I’m not sure how much more I can take of it either. And apparently through the grapevine, the end of 2019 is going to be quite the experience. Whatever that means.
And to help with this process our Sun is playing a major part in all this. According to SpaceWeather.com it is confirmed we are officially in a Solar Minimum meaning, “Solar minimum is the period of least solar activity in the 11 year solar cycle of the Sun. During this time, sunspot and solar flare activity diminishes, and often does not occur for days at a time.” (Thanks Wikipedia!)
But what does happen is our sun spits our the narliest CMEs (coronal mass ejection) toward Earth. Think of these a serious tsunamis of energy.
Now how does this go in hand with all this ascension talk? Well– those energy waves go through the Earth’s atmosphere and hits you. And its not like it’s little energy. We are talking YUUGE energy waves. This energy creates timeline jumps, sends you knowledge to download into your body and apparently crystalizes your dna (I’m still unsure about that one but for now lets roll with this stuff.)
Have you been feeling tired lately? Maybe clouded thinking? Maybe waking up at 3 or 4 am on the repeat?
Well — this can be might be because your body is being worn out by those waves and data downloads. (Someone needs to make a space weather app to tell me how I’m going to be feeling today.)
So that’s scratching the surface on ascension. Don’t worry I will come back to share more but after the countless Britney videos and dimensional talk I think I’ll leave you with that.
For more information on some of this stuff, I tried to find something legitimate but as mentioned before there is not a lot of solid information out there.
I think the most challenging part of the awakening process is really getting to the root of who I am.
The universe really calls on YOU. Not what society wants you to be, your parents or your friends. Or what’s even trendy. It wants YOU.
In beginning it feels simple but then faced with life’s challenges it becomes clear — oh sh*t, I don’t really know who I am. Or at least thats how it feels that way sometimes.
Abraham Hicks tells us to feel it. Feel what you like. Use those contrasting moments to identify who you are not. Or what you don’t like. But man, after a while of battling it out with life you just want to know. The constant fine tuning gets tiresome.
And then there are moments when I’m like — ‘is that what I really want?’ or ‘is it what I think I want?’ You have to admit our social conditioning has kind of f***ed us up. From day 1 we are told what to eat, what to wear, how to wear it, who we should date, what school to attend, what to become, how to make money, how much money we should make, etc — I can go on and on. But what exactly is it that I want?
Some days I just know and others — I’m in a deep haze walking blindly through the amazon rain forest WITHOUT the machete to help. Then, I think to myself ‘get into the f***ing vortex‘, so it will be easier. Because as we all know, my mission on earth is to just be me. Some days I think it would of been easier to just have a mission. You know like fix our water crisis. Maybe that is what I’ll do. At least it would give me some direction in life.
Now let’s be clear, I do have direction in my day to day. I currently own my own business and employ ten beautiful beings. There are some days I don’t even have time to think about myself at all. It’s not like the awakening has taken over my life. I can’t let it, I still have to be a functioning contributing member of society that pays their bills somewhat on time.
Something I have started doing is adopting the concept of ‘holy hour’. I wake up everyday at 5:30am and for an hour or two, focus on mediation, journaling and sometimes pulling tarot cards to reflect. I’m really working on trying to work on listening to that really quiet voice that guides us all. The problem with that voice is sometimes you have to get really still and quiet. And not everyone has time for that. But I have learned you have to make time for it. Otherwise, you might find yourself spinning in circles and getting hit by a bat by the universe which I don’t recommend.
My initial introduction to laws of attraction was over brunch 2 years ago when catching up with a good friend.
It’s all about the mother f***ing laws of attraction. You got to get into this sh*t. It’s legit.
(Sorry about the profanity but that is how it was presented to me. Prior to all this mess.)
I was in the vortex. I f***ing love being in the vortex. I need to work on being in the vortex all the time. It was so easy to get into the vortex there. Man I have no problem attracting money but love — I have problems attracting… maybe I can fix that…
He was referencing his in person experience on stage with Abraham Hicks. He flew out to see Ester Hicks a few weeks prior and did not come back the same. Evidently.
You got to get into the f***ing vortex.
Vortex? Okay… umm… hmm… vortex?! Like a whirlpool?… I digress…
After about 20 Abraham Hicks Youtube videos later sent by my dear friend, I was well — sold. Okay I’ll get into the f***ing vortex.
In the beginning, it was about attracting career success. At that point I was over bad bosses and low pay.
Then it was about finding what really made me happy. And we will get to that later (in a different post)…
Then it was about playing with the universe. Let’s see what can happen.
Bippity boppity boo!
Poof! All the things… cluttterrrrr.
But it wasn’t until my “awakening” or this “ascension” process until the principles of laws of attraction has really played a significant role in my life. Because when the universe hits you with a bat (ehem, dark night of the soul) you begin to vibe lower or at least it appears to be lower. So you are willing to do anything and everything to get the vibe up and see the light at the end of the tunnel.
After the universe hit me with a bat (also known as ‘the dark night of the soul’) I instantly fell on my knees to the universe.
So naturally when a friend from my past travels suggests to schedule a session with a QHHT practitioner I said ‘yes’.
The practitioner was patient with me as I had no clue what I was in for. She sent me information to prep me for the event and suddenly I found myself scheduling a “doctors” appointment to block out the 3-4 hours this would take.
In the beginning, I won’t lie it was weird. I forced myself to play along (or focus my way into it). But once in I was on autopilot.
The practitioner took me through past lives relevant to this time. Cliffnotes version: medieval period, a planet, and fjords. I’m still reflecting on what all of it means. *shrugs*
Then she proceeded to ask me the pages of questions I had sent over to her prior. I asked her about the standard questions: Love, Money, Sex. My sassy higher self to not worry that it’s all irrelevant. To stop wasting time and get going on my path.
And what was that? Good question, to be. I wasn’t on earth on some grandiose mission (– like the kind to save the planet from themselves). No I was here to live. (Thanks for the permission universe, I’m going sky diving, climbing Everest, and gambling all my money away… jk– at least with the last one.)
Afterwards I got a recording to go back to and reflect on the information presented to me.
To learn more about QHHT go to the source — the OG herself:
Any question as to the validity of my “awakening” was put to rest during my dark night of the soul experience.
The universe had hit me with a bat. (Wham!) Over and over again for a period of 45 days. I was leveled.
Never in my life have I felt such deep sadness. Not even with the passing of friends and family. I cried daily. I felt deep dark corners of my soul that I had never felt before. It was unexplainable as my baseline has always been happy.
Certain people in my life were becoming unhinged. Creating negative situations in which lead me to letting them go.
There was an incredible urge to eat. And oh did I eat — suddenly I found myself downloading the Pizza Hut app on my phone. They delivered a variety of fake food goodness to me frequently. (And I don’t even eat Pizza Hut?! – Paleo eater here!) My friends who were “woke” said I was grounding.
I’m pretty certain aside from my occupational commitments — I didn’t get out of bed. The world didn’t see me as I was LEVELED. (But I definitely caught up on all my streaming television.)
My body ached. I had felt muscle pain in which almost seemed my body aged to 80 in a heart beat. I had to seek therapy to help alleviate the ailments.
Then I started seeing repeating numbers EVERYWHERE. (Not the first time in my life but enough to get annoying.) What did it all mean? Should I or shouldn’t I? WTF universe can you send me a compass or a Rosetta Stone please?!
And finally after 40-50 days there was a break in the storm and I was able to go back to life business as usual, 10 pounds heavier (with my dark night of the soul LBs). But it wasn’t business as usual. It was clear, something was going on with me and there was no turning back.
Here is some web research that resonated with me about the ‘dark night of the soul’. Hope it helps!
I’m not exactly certain when the definite moment I had “awakened.” Looking back it almost seemed I was born awakened with no fighting chance of maintaining integrity. There are certain early memories that have lead me to think this.
Over time I was imprinted with the world’s perspectives and I became one of them.
Things did however begin to unravel when the promises of world had gone unfulfilled. I did exactly what was expected of me to only learn the math didn’t add up. I wasn’t even 30 yet and I thought to myself I have another 50-60 years of this game to go? WTF. That set me on the course…
“It isn’t by getting out of the world that we become enlightened, but by getting into the world…by getting so tuned in that we can ride the waves of our existence and never get tossed because we become the waves.”
― Ken Kesey
My journey didn’t really start until I began traveling. Through my travels I met strangers who spoke words such as “awaken,” “manifestation,” “Abraham Hicks,” “soul contracts,” “lightworker,” “twin flame,” “shadow work,” “laws of attraction,” “started,” “past lives,” “qhht,” “the shift,” “the event,” and even “woo, woo.”
Naturally curious I Googled — and went down many rabbit holes. At times I feel that I have lost many valuable hours trying to gain an understanding of what all of this means. Because I too was awakening from a deep slumber induced by my environment. From each interaction, things became slightly clearer.
But what I was finding — there was no concise road map left behind by others who have gone before me that I could use.
So here it is –a journal of my unearthly travels. Hope this helps someone make a little more sense of this all.
//Unearthly.Travel.Blog 