A lot has changed. Let me say that again A LOT has changed.

This “awakening” process has been a windy road. Ups and lots of downs. I have gone down some pretty crazy rabbit holes. Not all were “right” for me. In fact — some of them were decoys in the journey.

Let’s go back to the start of this whole mess:

In the beginning I knew something wasn’t adding up but I couldn’t put my finger on it. Then I began to experience the most darkest period of my life. Also known as the dark night of the soul. It’s where I gained the most of my weight eating pizza and where a lot of my life began to unravel. As well as of course I began to clear the decks of trauma and was forced to look at my life for what it really was — not the narrative I was taught.

Within months — I stepped outside my comfort zone of sanity and had my first QHHT session. It was not what I expected but the message was crystal clear — ‘stop p***y footing around and get on with your real existence.’

Later that spring I caught up with a friend for lunch to be only recruited into “Laws of Attraction” — my second experience outside my sanity “vortex”. It was appealing rabbit hole to go down because who wouldn’t want to get everything they desired? I think honestly, the laws of attraction are the fundamental gateway drug to all this new age sh*t. But I digress.

I do want to mention here– Abraham Hick’s teachings are a good place to start — because they really force you to be conscious of your frequency (vibe). I never really put emphasis on my vibe in my life prior to that moment. In my upbringing your vibe was irrelevant –along with your happiness. So it was a refreshing turn of events for me. A necessary stop in the journey of expansion.

Then I discovered the ascension process. Looking back it was just another necessary pit stop in my journey to give me a lexicon-self awareness I didn’t have prior. I don’t necessarily think we need to ascend into worthy beings. If you think about any of the theories out there of how we came to be here on this planet– we technically descended to come here — so we are already worthy. But I do think 3, 4, 5d, and so forth are pertinent descriptors. I consider the 3d existence high density, very low frequency, basic human existence. Think a few steps above cave man status. Then, the more you let go of the constraints of society, the lighter you will become. So you become lighter therefore you “ascend” higher. Think of it as basic 5th grade chemistry. The denser the particles, the more solid something is. The less denser the particles the more likely you are looking at liquid or gas. Not rocket science. As mentioned before we all learned this when we were 9.

In the beginning I too fell for the ascension game (just read all my old posts). We are not going to split from our bodies people. It’s a state of consciousness! Think of it as a Super Mario Brothers game. You win level 3 to unlock level 4. When you win level 4 you unlock level 5. Being on level 5 means what’s happening in the world no longer has an impact on you. You are free to do whatever you want. Buddha status!

And then of course we can’t forget about Tarot cards. If you do not go down the Tarot card rabbit hole — you aren’t doing it right. Wink, wink. Though I do consider Tarot and Oracles cards a great journaling prompt as a great way to reflect deeper. HOWEVER, I do believe putting all your eggs into the basket of a stack of paper is dangerous.

And I also got into crystals to only realize buying a ton of crystals is as bad as fuel consumption. Both are limited resources.

I begin to turn a corner into a better direction when I focus more on channeling my frequency. I still believe that out of all the woo woo concepts out there this is the most fundamentally important one. Why? Because I put it in practice every day and it works. You can actually influence the state of your circumstance greatly by your frequency. It was a game changer for me. I began to live really intentionally for the first time in every sense of the way.

Then the dude from Suspicious Observers fell into my pathway. I discovered something horrifying. That the Sun — one of our sources of life– could kill us. And in fact probably affects our day to day more than we know. That really gave me pause. For a moment that realization took me back to a dark place and then I realized that if all of this doesn’t matter — live already. This is a theme you will see in my posts over and over again. The struggle to break free of societal constructs and just to live my optimum life.

Yep – I would like to add I also went down the “Starseed” rabbit hole. Can’t forget to mention that as well. You bet I binged on “Which Starseed family did you come from” videos on Youtube. After being exposed to concepts like Reptilians — sorry I had to check out. Not for me. But I do think raw consciousness is “different” then the rest of the humans population. And well humans needed a way to classify those who are extraordinarily “different” from them. Is it a major surprise to you that the average Joe is mind blown by the depth and breath of a conscious individual?! LOL. They had to call us “Indigo Children” or “Starseed” as a way to categorize which was not normal to them. We are out of their universe!!

Now let’s skip ahead. When I discovered the term “Non Player Character” or “NPC” finally something clicked. It was no longer “Hey I’m different.” It turned into “hey you know all those people around you who inspired all that head scratching?” — they are the ones who are different. Like really different. They are a running program.

Wait– running program?

Yep — running program. We my friends are in a simulation of sorts.

Now — this is where in my journey, we have hit zero point. This awareness allowed a new beginning. Because before this realization –my journey was becoming too dogmatic. IE: Follow someone else’s teachings, do this or that, this is what is allowed and what is not allowed, oh –and if the aliens come, do this.

No thank you. I had enough of religion from my upbringing. No need for seconds.

From there everything has been history. The more I realize the potential of this being a scripted story the more I realize all the narratives going on in the world are fake. Who is running for president? Who cares. Pizzagate — I’m paleo thank you. It’s all about the latest narrative of what’s whirling on this planet. Kind of like a telenovela. Does any of it matter?

I view all of this as a way to kill time. It’s almost like watching sports on TV. Why do you do it? Because it’s entertaining. Watch Netflix? Entertaining. On Telegram following random Q narrative? Entertaining. Listen to Podcasts? Entertaining. Watch Youtube? Entertaining. Do I need to go on?

Just pick your emersion game from the screen. But remember. You choose. You can be either a watcher or a player.

Pick your poison. I choose player. (Warning, if you choose watcher don’t get sucked in by all the storylines.)

Anyway.

Did I mention I got recruited into a few spiritual cults? One of my gal pals and I are secretly hoping one of them gets famous so we can be on documentary like on Netflix or Hulu. Why not? It would be hilarious. This simulation is a sh*t show.

So now what? We are in a simulation, now what? Well honestly I don’t know.

We could be stuck here. And all of us are trying to solve the mysteries of life to get out of here.

OR we could potentially not be stuck here. What if came down here just to experience life in a different way? I say this because everyone is sweating balls trying to get out of the “matrix.” What if the joke on everyone? Has anyone thought of that?

What if this is the party? I still kinda stand by that. Don’t be a vibe killer. If we are creators and we can literally can create anything then why are we so glued to our phones and laptops? Why not be out there living, creating, making crazy sh*t happen? Time to do it up.

The rules are – create your own reality. You want to exit the matrix? You want to know the secret of ascension? You want to know the meaning of life?

Create your own reality and the way out is actually through.

Voilà!

❤ Love you all my gorgeous heart beats!