/dark night of the soul

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WTF is this sh*t?!

Any question as to the validity of my “awakening” was put to rest during my dark night of the soul experience.

The universe had hit me with a bat. (Wham!) Over and over again for a period of 45 days. I was leveled.

Never in my life have I felt such deep sadness. Not even with the passing of friends and family. I cried daily. I felt deep dark corners of my soul that I had never felt before. It was unexplainable as my baseline has always been happy.

Certain people in my life were becoming unhinged. Creating negative situations in which lead me to letting them go.

There was an incredible urge to eat. And oh did I eat — suddenly I found myself downloading the Pizza Hut app on my phone. They delivered a variety of fake food goodness to me frequently. (And I don’t even eat Pizza Hut?! – Paleo eater here!) My friends who were “woke” said I was grounding.

I’m pretty certain aside from my occupational commitments — I didn’t get out of bed. The world didn’t see me as I was LEVELED. (But I definitely caught up on all my streaming television.)

My body ached. I had felt muscle pain in which almost seemed my body aged to 80 in a heart beat. I had to seek therapy to help alleviate the ailments.

Then I started seeing repeating numbers EVERYWHERE. (Not the first time in my life but enough to get annoying.) What did it all mean? Should I or shouldn’t I? WTF universe can you send me a compass or a Rosetta Stone please?!

And finally after 40-50 days there was a break in the storm and I was able to go back to life business as usual, 10 pounds heavier (with my dark night of the soul LBs). But it wasn’t business as usual. It was clear, something was going on with me and there was no turning back.

Here is some web research that resonated with me about the ‘dark night of the soul’. Hope it helps!

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